My boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend. I don’t know what to do. I just want to cry and scream. I have never felt so much pain. I know that I sound stupid and young and most people tell me: “Time will cure everything”, but at this moment I really want to die.
It happened a sometimes ago. My best friend called me crying and sobbing. I was very scared because she was just blabbing “I’m sorry, I’m sorry”, without really telling me why she was crying, and then she told me. She said that my boyfriend cheated on me with her a week ago and that she felt guilty. I could not say anything, so I just hung up. She started sending me many messages about how sorry she was, and she asked me to forgive her, but I honestly do not know how to feel. He was my boyfriend for almost 2 years and I really really loved him. I still do. I cannot believe he did this. I sent him a message asking if it was true and he did not even deny it. He only said that he “regrets it because she promised she would not tell me anything”. I called him while I was crying and screaming and he just told me to calm down. In fact, I told him to go fuck himself and after many messages and missed calls he came to my house and asked me to talk. I refused. I just could not do it. I feel bad. My best friend has always been prettier and smarter than me and she is better in all aspects, but this time I thought I had found someone who preferred me to her. Guess I was wrong. The worst part is that I can say that she’s really sorry. She keeps calling and sending text messages and begging me to forgive her. But I’m not sure if I can do it. But the idea of spending the rest of my life without her scares me. I’ve known her since we were six years old. I do not know what to do.